Last night I gave notice to my committee that I won't be returning to the kid's education program in the new year.
I am a little sad.
I just don't feel that I had any other real choice.
So I am quitting a job I love because to stay would mean that I would continue to be a lighting rod for one person's odd but convincing, political/emotional machinations. One POWERFUL person.
This is church for pity sakes.
Which, unbeknownst to me....I apparently want to take over and make into my own mini empire and to do so I will stop at nothing!
Wow, I didn't even know that about myself.
But apparently most of the church board does.
Apparently they were okay with it though, I mean, being a sneaky, morally bankrupt person who is attempting to manipulate the entire congregation for my own twisted and deeply hidden reasons - that doesn't mean I shouldn't be working unsupervised with their children.
Okay, so I'm a little sad and bitter.
And yeah, I kind of get why it has been happening.
Our church doesn't have a minister and can just barely afford one. Some people in the congregation have it as their strongest desire to find this professional leadership and the person spearheading this particular drive is scared to death of having anything divert attention or funds from this all important finding of a minister.
Enter, me, with my talk of expanding and improving the areas of the church where the children and youth programs are run - that is expensive and distracting.
Don't forget that I also keep mentioning that any renovations that we do will only be temporary and really, we do need to look at moving to a bigger, possibly newer, definitely more pricey space.
ooops gotta go. 10k run at -15 is beckoning.
Thanks for letting me vent.
You know what else?
I'm actually damn good and appropriate when I work with kids.